4.5 months

She's eating twice a day, the rice cereal and she grabs my hand with both of her hands which becomes quite a mess. But she opens her mouth like a little bird ready for the worm! So cute.

I absolutely HATE going to work and leaving her with grandma or daddy. I want to be with her and I shall very soon.I don't care how it has to happen or where we have to go but I cannot be without her like I was without my B, missing all his babyhood and missing him calling out in the morning and missing first steps because he was with a babysitter and my mom picked him up. I was gone 12 hours a day for during his babyhood and that was AWFUL. Now,although I'm working 10-2 that turns into 8-4 that I'm NOT with my baby T.

She's biting my fingers a lot and drooling. Doctor had said she may begin teething soon. B didn't get teeth till he was a year and I"m hoping she won't get any too soon either with the breastfeeding. Even eating the cereal at night she's still eating 2x's at night so when I have to leave for work is when I REALLY want to go back to take a nap. And I have to drive such a long way to get to work that some days I don't know how I make it being so sleepy.

She's in her crib each night and goes to sleep after her bath & a little nursing. If she's not fully asleep I'll play spanish lullaby music.

She rolled over once the other day but not since. I marked it on the calendar but it hasn't become regular yet.

18 pounds

So we went to the 4 month checkup yesterday and she now weighs 18.01pounds. Thát's 10 pounds heavier than her birth weight. Dr. said we can start rice cereal which I will feed her today at our Thanksgiving meal. She's still been waking up every couple hours to eat and last night it seemed to be every hour, I don't know. She got 3 injections which contained 5 vaccinations. Her legs are chunky and her tummy too. Dr. said she was fat in all the right places with the breast milk. Today's her first major holiday! Oh how I wish it were last year when I was newly pregnant. I miss it so much. I brushed her hair to the other side one night after her bath this week and she looked a bit like a. hitler. yikes. but she's cute like that. She's not rolled over yet but trying. She bites all fingers on both hands interchangeably and alternately, not preferring any over the other. At this age, B was sucking his left thumb exclusively, and he gave up on the chupete. T still likes the chupete as well as her fingers/thumb/hand. We put her in the jumpy this week and at first she didn't like it, but the next day she seemed to take to it better. B is practicing with a borrowed Wii. He gets frustrated easily with such games but seems to be enjoying it right now. I guess I'll go and put the turkey in the oven.

new things

She grabbed her chupete out of her mouth and put it back in. She's getting better at grabbing things. She likes to hold her rag or beads. She can't always put the chupete back in her mouth but sometimes she does. She laughed out loud last week and I tried to video it but she stopped making the out loud noise and was just smiling when I blew on her tummy. Last night my mom was tickling her and she laughed out loud. It's such a lovely sound. Last night was her first night in her crib.I've been having her sleep down on the floor in her bassinet since day 1 but decided to give her more space and a softer mattress in her crib. She did ok mostly and I slept in the futon in her room. We woke up at midnight and 2am for feedings and then I couldn't go back to sleep as she was crying out and moving around a bit. It seems louder in the crib than in the bassinet, with her leg lifts and moving around. I think she likes smaller spaces because again the other night she slept in the car seat until 2am after falling asleep in the restaurant at 9. She scratched above her eye with her ever growing fingernails. They are sharp! I'll be taking her soon for her 4 month appt with the doctor. On Nov 19 she's 4 months old so I'll make an appt for around then, coordinating a day when dad's working so I can take off using sick leave. So after this appt I'm sure I'll get the go-ahead for some cereal/food. Although a friend of mine gives her 2month old cereal in his bottle, T has only gotten breast milk from day 1, minus the nights in the nursery at the hospital when they gave her a small amount of formula. I'm pumping once a day at work and she'll drink about 4 ounces in the time I'm gone. But with the cereal soon to be given to her, she'll probably get more satisfaction. She's a big girl! Her tummy and legs have rolls of fat!! :>